Honestly? I don't know what we're fighting about either.
[He lets out a short, humorless laugh. He's still exhausted, it seems to show a little bit more on his face and frame every day.]
I guess I just... it makes me nervous. Seeing the way I hurt you, just by... being me. Sooner or later you're gonna get sick of waiting around for me to need you, and you'll... leave. And that's scary to think about. You're the only person that remembers Boston.
I know you have alot on your plate and alot of new people, I'm the outlier right now.
[He looks at him with a small smile.]
If I've put up with you for this long, I'm too stupid to leave now. Besides it's not like I'll be able to avoid seein that mug of yours, you seem popular... that must really be weighin on you.
Didn't spend much time around people, back home. Had a lot of alone time, to just... think. I've got my own room, y'know, away from Fran, but I don't use it. Always feels like I'm getting pushed into something or another.
[He glances at Jason, and awkwardly rubs the back of his neck.]
I think it's gonna be... good. Stepping back from everyone else, trying to focus on Francis. I don't think I can stay completely faithful to him, but... I don't know. I need an anchor. Something... better than what Augustine was. Fuck, does that make any sense?
[He just sits there and listens Dodger's been going through alot and it's apparent, he's different it looks like Dodger wasn't prepared for it.]
It does. Steppin back is gonna be good for you, and if Francis is the one that you think will help you the most you should focus on that, but gotta focus on yourself to. Don't hyper fixate on anything because you don't wanna acknowledge the shit in your head.
[He lets out a small sigh of a laugh.]
it's not like you to be tied down, if you were fully faithful I think you've been hypnotized or some funky mind shit.
[He smiles looking at him, he's really trying there's still a trace of sadness in his eyes but he really is happy that Dodger still wants to hang out, and that he's working on what he needs.]
Though... do you think I'll still be able to call you big bear?
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[He lets out a short, humorless laugh. He's still exhausted, it seems to show a little bit more on his face and frame every day.]
I guess I just... it makes me nervous. Seeing the way I hurt you, just by... being me. Sooner or later you're gonna get sick of waiting around for me to need you, and you'll... leave. And that's scary to think about. You're the only person that remembers Boston.
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We really are a mess, aren't we?
[He finishes his cigarette and looks away.]
I know you have alot on your plate and alot of new people, I'm the outlier right now.
[He looks at him with a small smile.]
If I've put up with you for this long, I'm too stupid to leave now. Besides it's not like I'll be able to avoid seein that mug of yours, you seem popular... that must really be weighin on you.
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Didn't spend much time around people, back home. Had a lot of alone time, to just... think. I've got my own room, y'know, away from Fran, but I don't use it. Always feels like I'm getting pushed into something or another.
[He glances at Jason, and awkwardly rubs the back of his neck.]
I think it's gonna be... good. Stepping back from everyone else, trying to focus on Francis. I don't think I can stay completely faithful to him, but... I don't know. I need an anchor. Something... better than what Augustine was. Fuck, does that make any sense?
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It does. Steppin back is gonna be good for you, and if Francis is the one that you think will help you the most you should focus on that, but gotta focus on yourself to. Don't hyper fixate on anything because you don't wanna acknowledge the shit in your head.
[He lets out a small sigh of a laugh.]
it's not like you to be tied down, if you were fully faithful I think you've been hypnotized or some funky mind shit.
[He smiles looking at him, he's really trying there's still a trace of sadness in his eyes but he really is happy that Dodger still wants to hang out, and that he's working on what he needs.]
Though... do you think I'll still be able to call you big bear?